April 21

I was supposed to go to the store today to pick up a few things.  But, well, it started raining this morning.

I wound up buying the things I needed online instead.


It looks like migraines and depression won another battle again today.

That Ever Present Shadow

I've been pretty good since a young age, at keeping my emotions in check.  I've had to be that way, and I've been singled out too many times when I didn't do so.  Anger has never really been a problem as I was lucky enough to have inherited my father's patience.  My issue has always been sadness, loneliness and worthlessness.  So many times guilt comes along with that.  I try to hide these feelings away so that I don't have to deal with them but inevitably, they make their way to the top again.  Its always bound to happen.

And now I found out after talking to one of my numerous doctors(my psychiatrist) this morning that at least two of my medications (I take 5 different ones regularly, 7 if you count the two I take when the migraines get really bad) are adding to the depression.  To tell you the truth, it sounds like just my luck.  I keep smacking into brick walls my whole body is metaphorically bruised.